I have never found myself this short on words to explain my over all feelings about a series.
But..
It started out in a way where i felt that ECB was like an estranged brother of Pak Cricket. It gave us the grounds with lush outfields to play neutral tests. It gave us the respect, crowd and facilities. It gave us the conditions where our bowlers conquered new grounds and became renewed icons in the eyes of millions of Pak fans. The English fans supported us against Australia, and there was no better feeling then that. We had found a friend and an ally in these horrifying times. And still i am short on words about how to thank England and its people for what they provided us with.
As far as my posts were about the action on the ground, they were just emotionally driven and specific to the game on the field it self and bore no personal attack on any English poster or cricketer or ECB itself. You will find a lot of people who will do mudslinging towards UK, but the day (if any) NZ pulls out of a series like that or ECB denies Pak team there venues for neutral games, and Pak has to play tests in the heat and high UVs of UAE... only then those people and morons like Ijaz Butt would realize what it meant to have a home away from home...like England.
The obvious can't be denied however, for any Pak fan. Its like watching your own kid betraying you and taking off with a stranger to Las Vegas. Mohammad Amir was one of the brightest stars that Pakistan produced. He was bound to be the next great and his involvement in such things has shattered many hearts in Pakistan. Being a cricket fan, this should be somewhat understandable to all of us here.
Overall this series has been a mix of love hate relationship with cricket itself for me but i must admit that the series ended on a high note for me. In the tears of sorrow, i did smile when Akhtar bowled some pacy yorkers, or when Gul shattered Broad's stumps. Akhtar and Gul to an extent made me forget about Amir and Asif...
Now, i can only hope and pray that that day does not come when, i go on to cricinfo and find a headline of something devastatingly big for Pak Cricket. I can only hope and pray that PCB management gets sacked and the new people are at least half more honest to cricket then the current. I just hope that we don't get isolated and become another Zimbabwe...but if we do, it will be our own people who would choke our cricket to death and no one else, it will be Ijaz Butt. From SL team attacks to now, this man has poisoned our cricket to great depths and will take a long time for us to get back up again. But we will Inshallah.
And i must say... Thank you England....( All the fuss over spot fixing,... it may just be a blessing in disguise for us...so thanks for that heads up too)
